Izumi wanna say, thank you to those who have celebrated/ will be celebrating my birthday with me. i appreciate it very very much. ((:
Yeh and today I have received a belated birthday present from MOE. a letter telling me that i have been shortlisted for an interview for DIP ED ('A') Though it is not my birthday wish or something of my choice, i still have to thank them for considering my application and processing it. It is so kind of them to open up another path for me. (okay, i sound so much like a loser)
But OH GOD! i hate interviews!! i can imagine myself sitting in front of a panel of interviewers shivering and looking like an airhead or even stammer and biting my own tongue when answering to their questions.
DO I HAVE TO DO THIS ?!(DAMN)
it is 2weeks from now. i know that they have given me more than enough time to prepare, but.. confidence.. isnt something that i can built up over fortnight. and.. i know that to be able to teach well.. i must be confident.
CONTRADICTING !
how can i become a teacher when i dont have confidence? and i strongly believe that confidence is something that they will be looking out for during the interview besides mere empty and nice smothering words. and yea, it is confidence that shows how passionate someone is. wad is passion if i speak like a mouse. its not even convincing at all. if i ever going to say im passionate about teaching, i think they'll ROFL in addition with a few flip-and-turns !! damn it.
DO I HAVE TO DO THIS ?!
GOD, i think i will be having nightmares from today onwards till the end of interview and still suffer from post-interview trauma for like another 3days. and it'll become a cycle 15days after the interview results if they realise that i've the potential to become a strong and influencing teacher and decides to give me a second round of interview. then i will be NOOOOOO~ save me from this mess!
DO I REALLY HAVE TO DO THIS ?!
can i call SOS now ?! like seriously. can anyone, just anyone who have been secretly reading my blog, HELP ME! moral support is not enough and if you've decided to read and ignore, you are not friend enough. HAHA kidding lurh, cos i know its kinda stupid.
well well, maybe i should stop grumbling.. and.. start preparing for my interview.. and and.. .. for the worst.
even though i might in the end decide that SIM is best for me, i still wanna get through this.
Izumi wanna say, thank you to those who have celebrated/ will be celebrating my birthday with me. i appreciate it very very much. ((:
Yeh and today I have received a belated birthday present from MOE. a letter telling me that i have been shortlisted for an interview for DIP ED ('A') Though it is not my birthday wish or something of my choice, i still have to thank them for considering my application and processing it. It is so kind of them to open up another path for me. (okay, i sound so much like a loser)
But OH GOD! i hate interviews!! i can imagine myself sitting in front of a panel of interviewers shivering and looking like an airhead or even stammer and biting my own tongue when answering to their questions.
DO I HAVE TO DO THIS ?!(DAMN)
it is 2weeks from now. i know that they have given me more than enough time to prepare, but.. confidence.. isnt something that i can built up over fortnight. and.. i know that to be able to teach well.. i must be confident.
CONTRADICTING !
how can i become a teacher when i dont have confidence? and i strongly believe that confidence is something that they will be looking out for during the interview besides mere empty and nice smothering words. and yea, it is confidence that shows how passionate someone is. wad is passion if i speak like a mouse. its not even convincing at all. if i ever going to say im passionate about teaching, i think they'll ROFL in addition with a few flip-and-turns !! damn it.
DO I HAVE TO DO THIS ?!
GOD, i think i will be having nightmares from today onwards till the end of interview and still suffer from post-interview trauma for like another 3days. and it'll become a cycle 15days after the interview results if they realise that i've the potential to become a strong and influencing teacher and decides to give me a second round of interview. then i will be NOOOOOO~ save me from this mess!
DO I REALLY HAVE TO DO THIS ?!
can i call SOS now ?! like seriously. can anyone, just anyone who have been secretly reading my blog, HELP ME! moral support is not enough and if you've decided to read and ignore, you are not friend enough. HAHA kidding lurh, cos i know its kinda stupid.
well well, maybe i should stop grumbling.. and.. start preparing for my interview.. and and.. .. for the worst.
even though i might in the end decide that SIM is best for me, i still wanna get through this.
